I should be blue. It's raining - actually, it's been raining since yesterday but, today, it hasn't let up for even a moment. And I'm not blue at all. I'm enjoying the rain. My puppies, Harley and Junior, are not though. Well, Harley is - he hates to be outside when we're in. Junior is bummed because he can't run around. I should be studying Calculus but I realized I haven't written in my blog for a very long while.
Nothing to really report. School is becoming a drag. I think it's because I've gone nonstop for the last two years. Maybe it's time to take a summer off and work on something else. Something that I want to do. Problem is, if I take the summer off will I remember to start back up when the fall returns. It's a big deal so I should talk it over with the LTR but I know he is going to say no. Maybe he will surprise me. But I'm too old to 'F' around on this. I really need to finish but sometimes you need a break. My heart just doesn't seem like it is into learning right now.
I feel like a character, Ben. Except Ben is done with school and can't see what the Future holds for him. He is also twenty-five and doesn't know what it means to be human. Mainly, because he isn't human. He is a bot. Not just any bot; he has the ability to see Reality for what it truly is...Virtual. He just doesn't know it because his entire life has been spent dealing with Avatars (humans) and they don't know he isn't an Avatar. Well, they didn't know. How do I feel? Tired and wondering. How does Ben feel? Exhausted and wondering. I'm just wondering if I'm truly understanding my classes. Ben is wondering; what is the Universe for? Interesting story? I really should write it out instead of thinking about it.
Off to finish surfing the web for some info...
